HERO TODAY GONE TOM.

SO TONIGHT I REALIZED THAT PEOPLE WHO I USED TO TRUST AND CONSIDER A HERO TO ME ARE NOT WHO I THOUGHT THEY WERE.  I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED BY OTHERS TONIGHT, BUT ALSO IN MYSELF.  I ALLOWED OTHER PEOPLES WISHES AND DESIRES FOR ME DICTATE MY CHOICES INSTEAD OF PUTTING WHAT GOD WANTS FIRST.  I KNOW THAT PEOPLE CHANGE OVER TIME....BUT I NEVER EXPECTED ONE OF MY HERO'S TO GO FROM ONE EXTREME TO ANOTHER AND IT REALLY MADE ME QUESTION THINGS.  ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS THAT I AM THANKFUL THAT CHRIST CAME AND GAVE HIS BLOOD FOR ME SO THAT I COULD BE SAVED AND CAN SAY THAT I AM A CHRISTIAN.  WITHOUT CHRIST MY HEART WOULDNT BEAT THE SAME AND I JUST HOPE THAT I STAY ON HIS PATH THAT HE HAS PLANNED OUT FOR ME.  <3 YOU FATHER! 

FUTURE HUSBAND

SO I KNOW THAT THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A PERFECT RELATIONSHIP BUT THERE ARE JUST A FEW THINGS THAT I WANT/EXPECT OUT OF A FUTURE HUSBAND:
1. I WANT TO KNOW THAT WE CAN TRUST ONE ANOTHER
2. I WANT US TO BE OPEN AND HONEST WITH ONE ANOTHER
3. I WANT OUR RELATIONSHIP TO BE FOR GOD...SO I WANT TO SPEND TIME PRAYING, READING THE BIBLE, AND JUST TALKING ABOUT GOD WITH HIM
4. I WANT TO SPEND QUALITY TIME WITH HIM....JUST TALKING AND GETTING TO KNOW HIM
5. I WANT US TO BE ON THE SAME PAGE WHEN IT COMES TO PARENTING AND HOW WE ARE GOING TO MANAGE OUR HOUSE AND MONEY
6.  I WANT TO SERVE THE COMMUNITY WITH HIM
7. I WANT HIM TO BE WILLING AND WANTING TO GO TO CHURCH WITH ME
8. I WANT HIM TO LOVE ME FOR ME AND ALL THE STUPID THINGS I DO
9. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ACT SILLY AND STUPID AROUND HIM AT TIMES
10. MOST IMPORTANTLY I WANT US TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP THAT IS FOR GOD AND IS LOVING

BOUNDARIES......TO BE HONEST I HAVE HAD BE CONSISTENTLY THINKING ABOUT MY BOUNDARIES FOR ABOUT TWO WEEKS STRAIGHT NOW....WHAT THEY ARE....WHAT THEY SHOULD BE....WHAT THEY HAVE BEEN.....IF I HAVE EVER COMPROMISED MY BOUNDARIES FOR SOMEONE ELSE.....I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I WILL....NO LONGER SIT ON ANYONE ELSE'S LAP OTHER THAN THE PERSON I AM WITH.....THAT I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF OR MY PARTNER TO KISS IN FRONT OF OTHERS (UNLESS WE ARE GETTING ENGAGED OR IT IS OUR WEDDING OF COURSE)......THAT WHEN I AM AT CHURCH IT IS TIME FOR ME AND GOD...NOT TIME FOR "RELATIONSHIP TIME"-OTHER THAN BUILDING FRIENDSHIPS WITH OTHERS BY SHOWING AND DISCUSSING WHAT GOD IS DOING IN OUR LIFE....I WILL NOT PUT MYSELF IN A SITUATION THAT COULD BE HARMFUL TO ME OR OTHERS....SO I WILL ONLY GO OUT WITH ANOTHER MALE THAT I AM NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH UNLESS I HAVE OTHER PEOPLE TO GO WITH ME AND HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE....I WILL ONLY BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH AN INDIVIDUAL THAT WANTS TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO RISK MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD IN ORDER TO BE IN A REALTIONSHIP WITH A GUY...I WILL NEVER SMOKE...THE ONLY TIME I WILL CONSIDER DRINKING WOULD BE AT MY WEDDING (AND THEN MAYBE 1 GLASS OF RED WINE A MONTH BECAUSE IT IS GOOD FOR YOUR HEART...BUT THAT WOULD BE MY ONLY REASON AND I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO DRINK ANY ALCOHOL)...I AM STILL IN THE PROCESS OF THINKING OF MY BOUNDARIES AND WILL BE ADDING ON TO THEM BUT TO START SOMEWHERE IS GOOD

I TRULY HAVE THE BESTFRIEND AND BOYFRIEND EVER.  
I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE DUKE IN 
MY LIFE THAT HOLDS ME ACCOUNTABLE AND VALUES
HAVING GOD IN OUR RELATIONSHIP.  I WOULDNT WANT 
TO BE WITH ANYONE BUT HIM.  HE MAKES ME VERY HAPPY
ESPECIALLY WHEN I AM HAVING A HARD DAY.  HE IS
ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.  HE HAS HELPED ME IN MY
RELATIONSHIP WITH MY HEAVENLY FATHER.  
HE LISTENS TO ME, AND ALLOWS ME TO BE MYSELF.  
I LOVE THAT I CAN TRUST HIM AND TELL HIM ANYTHING. 

Haiti

I am going to Haiti June 11th: which is Raymond's birthday.  I am excited but I have no idea what is in store for me or what I will experience; but I cannot wait to go. 

my pre-k room
after i changed some things up :)

 i love my bestfriends!

I don’t want a perfect relationship. I just want someone who I can act myself with, someone who treats me right and loves being with me. Most importantly I want to be with a man that I can trust and have a godly relationship with.   

Word

My word for this year is: ACTIVE

the reason i choose this word is because i have a hard time being active in conversations, i am sometimes absent in my realtionships, and i have not been that active in my prayer life or my journey with God so i thought it would be a good way to help me focus more in those areas i am also going to work on being more active physically so that i can honor my body the way that God wants me to.