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My past has dictated how I am now, and I wish it didn't. Events with my parents and other individuals have caused me to be angry and hostile towards other individuals that I care about. I have been hurt a lot in my past and it has caused me not to be open or social with others that I love and care a lot about. I now realize how important it is to be open with others and how much others want me to share thing with them. I have had a hard time trusting others because of my past and this has caused me not to be open. Parents are supposed to be there for you during important events of your life and support you through everything. However because of my brothers condition my parents were unable to be there during important times in my life, and there have been times where they haven't supported me. My father and I have not had the best relationship over the past couple of years, but I am happy to say that I have recently forgiven him for what he has done. My past has caused me to be very angry and has not allowed me to be myself. I however have changed over the past couple of weeks because I have allowed God to change me and take all my burdens. When I gave God all my worries, burdens, and everything that I was holding onto it allowed me to change. I have now fallen in love with myself because I have realized that there is someone that will always be there for me, and that all the things I were believing were just lies. I am perfect because I was made in God's image and I can do anything and everything because of Him. I have changed because God has allowed me to and because His love and truth has fulfilled my heart and life. Having God be my true friend has helped me through everything. He has helped me realize that things happen for a reason and that I may not like them or that I may not like the timing that God chooses, but His plan is perfect. I am glad that God never stays angry at us for the sins that we have and that He forgives us and "brushes them under the carpet". I didn't understand how to forgive or the true meaning of forgiveness till my boyfriend and I broke up. I had many individuals that are important in my life talk to me about forgiveness and how God is always forgiving and that we should always forgive because He unconditionally forgives us. I am grateful that I have been forgiven of all my sins and that God hasn't given up on me. I can honestly say that I have been forever changed because of God and it is amazed.