friends

Friends are important to have, and you should keep your friends close to you. A true friend is hard to find, and hard to keep. I would say that I didn't have a true friend till recently. I was in a relationship with an amazing Christian guy who treated me better than I deserved, who held me accountable, and challenged me in many ways. Then our relationship ended and it seemed like I was loosing my best friend. To loose a friend is one of the hardest thing someone can go through, especially if they are your best friend, and a true friend. I know that I haven't "lost" him as a friend, and that he is still there for me, but things are different. It has been hard to go from talking to my best friend when ever I wanted, and needed, to having to just settle talking to other friends. A friend is someone who is supposed to be there whenever you need them, they are supposed to know you, and accept you for who you are, and also hold you accountable. I never had a friend like this till I was in my last relationship, all my other friends would talk about me as soon as I turned my back, or would cut me down, and they never built me up. I have been trying to find friends who would be a true friend and I have started to find some, but at the same time I have a hard time trusting others because of how I was treated in the past. I would say that the only true friends I have had are Duke and Marissa, but they will never compare to the friendship that God has given me. God has been there for me through everything, He has lifted me up when I was at my lowest, He has provided, and He is what a true friend is. I am happy to have God as my best and ultimate friend who I can always turn to no matter what time of day, or where I am at, He is EVERYTHING and more.